"You're Welcome"

Now was that so hard?

Rough week that really hasn't been getting better. Guess I shouldn't be surprised. After all, it is midterm season. I can't even be complaning because I only have 3 and they're not back to back. Doesn't mean I've learnt to study early. Doesn't mean I'm not getting stressed out. I feel like history is repeating itself but I do feel slightly more prepared. Or atleast know what to expect (shittyness wise). Had my first of two Chem midterms last week and I'm proud to say I filled everything out. But that's as much as I can speak for at the moment (which speaks for itself). Bio is tomorrow night and I am really starting to freak because even though we get a double sided memory aid (which I have almost crammed all of my notes on), it's all short answers and that in itself is difficult, let alone problems pertaining to cell bio. Gosh I wish you could major and make a living on BS writing. Not even joking. I think I could flourish in that field but that field only. Boo who am I kidding. What am I doing? On top of school, life hasn't been the sweetest lately. Thanksgiving was fine, dinner went pretty well. Gramma bailed because guzhe's bf is in town and so we just made way too much food for popo and takyun and the kiddies. Bro was a little disappointed because the roast was a tad overdone but I like it. I made a chicken pie and kinda botched the crust but it barely made it over night. B made green tea lychee cheesecake and turned out gorgeous but not terribly flavourful. In her defense, it was well gorge; and you can't really go wrong with cheesecake. Last night however was went it all went to bits. Ticking time bomb waiting to go off you could say. Not something new but just hadn't had problems with in a while and made things shitty. gah. past my bedtime and I still don't know how I'm going to make it all the way through tomorrow. Good thing I've already let myself go out afterwards. Went to the new LA Grill across the street with Serena and Trevor last week and it was really nice to wind down. Tomorrow's reserved for sushi, Sapporo, and my personal LB. Not even excited for expensive sushi, I just need the beer. So sad because I broke my "sober streak" a long time ago already. Twas only a one month probation. =P

Started playing with movie maker yeterday because I downloaded it for a presentation (which didn't go terribly well either today). Didn't want to study last night so I threw my summer cam dump onto in and started editing. It'll pop up once finito.

xoxo
*repositioning targets

New Tunes

Hero

Family of the Year

Let me go

I don't wanna be your hero

I don't wanna be a big man

Just want to fight with everyone else

Your masquerade

I don't wanna be a part of your parade

Everyone deserves a chance to

Walk with everyone else

While holding down

A job to keep my girl aroud

And maybe buy me some new strings

And her and I out on the weekends

And we can whisper things

Secrets from our American dreams

Bbay needs some protection

But I'm a kid like everyone else

So let me go

I don't wanna be your hero

I don't wanna be a big man

I just wanna fight like everyone else

...

So let me go

I don't wanna be your hero

I don't wanna be a big man

I just wanna fight like everyone else

Your masquerade 

I don't wanna be a part of your parade

Everyone deserves a chance to

Walk with everyone else

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It's Okay, That's love ost

Allan and Nancy's Wedding Aug 31, 2014

Pictures paint the picture better than words. And unfortunately at the moment, embarrassment has gotten the best of me. 

To be continued...

Eventually there will be the photo booth photos that pretty much starts off as classy and then goes white girl wasted. 

Still can't say I didn't have a good night though. Can't say I had the best morning after but that's besides the fact. 

Oh and I guess I should mention that I didn't win either diet bets. Wasn't even close. But it was eye opening and that's what's important. But both my uncle

And cousin won't take my money so the pool is just going to go towards good food with grandma :) maybe to make up for having riden home from the wedding with mr. Pukey. 

Another sleepless night

I'm Still staring at the ceiling

I can hear em fighting 

With her for no good reason...

- sleepless nights

Any one still speak of Faber Drive anymore? What happened to them anyway? Regardless, those first two lines pop into my head when I'm strung up on the day's caffeine and well, still staring at the ceiling, literally. 

Anyhoo, story of the day, wrote my last of two finals for the summer. Yesterday's was horrendously scary and I am honestly really really nervous about it still. Today's was actually better than I expected and way better than the final so I'm not worried at all. So glad to be done!  Time to have real fun for the next two weeks.... Or just watch a shitload of tv. I actually got really excited last night because my cousin is getting married at the end of the month and he had just posted wedding shoot photos on Facebook. They're gorgeous and it really hit me how soon the wedding is. On the other hand it's got me a little nervous. The reason why The Diet Bet idea came about was because I had bought a consigned dress for cheap for the wedding. Before you go all "ick, she consigns" on me, I had grabbed the dress thinking is try it on for fun. It's a small and form fitted so going in, I didn't think it would fit/ look good on at all. However, being form fitted and one shouldered, it's pretty stretchy and provided enough slack to fit my "curves". It fit, and it looked kinda hot. I had looked into dresses online (cuz who doesn't when they're supposed to be studying /:) and was looking for super summery, flowy, dressed with a full skirt to balance out my chubs. So this was totally a 180 from what I was expecting. Long story shorter, it was on sale and I thought what the hell, let this be motivation to get fit! It's not overly small for me but I decided to make it a big deal so that I actually aim to be more active and watch what I eat. Safe to say it's working but slowly and now that school is over I can focus on doing it right and making a difference. I want to try and maintain a good balance that I can keep up even after the wedding /bet but as time is ticking, I do want to push myself to make the deadline. I realized last week that my cousin (who actually also started a side bet with me) may be a little more self disciplined (when he wants to be) than me, but now that I think about it, that just means I have to get my game together and really work in order to win. I'm excited to be able to hang out with my friends again which also means eating out and drinking out more often but I now also have time to work my butt and burn it off. :) I think a slight problem may be my sleeping schedule as always. It's usually irregular and the red bull I had this afternoon is clearly not helping anything. -.-

Have plans to have sushi tomorrow night so I think I'll stop by the mall after babysitting to pre-burn some calories. Haha of only it worked that way. Mighty night!

Lifestylez: August

Since weigh in #1, I've been trying to track what I put into my system and the amount I burn throughout the day. I started off using an iPhone app called Lose It! but have since swapped over to My Fitness Pal as it seems to have a larger database of foods.

I feel like it's doing a really good job of making me conscious of what I eat and when however, it hasn't helped drastically change my diet. The first week after The Diet Bet (let's call it that), I was very motivated to get out more and to get moving. But since summer has been rolling on at full throtle, it's been hard to keep my food choices healthy and in check. I think the two things that I've been a sucker for are cold beers and popsicles. I don't usually have either super often but I feel like the summer heat has me craving them all the time. Another thing that puts me behind is coffee. I'm not a crazy coffee addict like some may be but I do really really enjoy my Caramel Machiatto's. I let them slide mainly because with non-fat milk, they don't take up too much of my calorie quota. This week has been a little difficult as my summer school exams are lurking closer and I haven't had as much time to be out and about. Going to work is a good excuse to get me on my bike but since I don't work all that often, the days in between get a little lazier. Along with having more free time, I've been drawn to try new resturaunts and eat out more making it even harder to watch what I eat. Tried out Craft Beer Market a couple days ago and having had biked from work, I splurged on a beer paddle and crab cake sliders. That lunch felt a little too lavish to skip the beer and have a salad. I've got to make sure I make up for that soon. 

This week, my aim is to focus on eating at home again. It's easier to control what and how much I eat but it takes a bit of effort and time. We've got some veggies again in the fridge so hopefully that will be a good start. I also would like to get back into running because goodness knows when my last run was. I'm thinking of trying to mix running and maybe some workout videos together to see how that goes. I feel like I'm not mixing enough strength training into my (barely there) workouts to be as productive as I could be. 

I met up with my cousin in the bet today and it got me a little worried. Because of our difference in lifestyles, cutting large amounts of junk food seems easier compared to refining a relatively nutritive diet into some thing better. I don't know if that makes sense but in the short run, I think it's a little harder for me to lose the weight as fast as he can. Haha I feel like I either just called him a fatass or made myself sound like it's hard for me to lose weight. *Disclaimer: I am in no way trying to make losing weight sound like a game or anything; we just all really needed the motivation* Hopefully I can treat this as extra motivation and move my butt in time to make it count. Regardless, I want to make this an experience that will potentially make changes to my diet and activity and well my overall lifestlye. 

Last two weeks in activity:

07.25 - 08.04 

friday: biked seawall

saturday: biked seawall

sunday: biked seawall

monday: ultimate

tuesday: walked langara trail

wednesday: n/a

thursday: biked granville island

friday: n/a

saturday: walked downtown (fireworks)

sunday: biked to work

monday: biked to work, to Craft

hiatus since tuesday

School ends after this week so hopefully that will give me more time to plan and move and get fit! Been meaning to get some Blogilates in the mix and just discovered BeFit! on Youtube so hopefully I can incorporate those at home.

I talk about a lot of random things all the time but everything I don't own is linked. Click to see more :) 

Life...styles

Ack, was thinking of posting this to document it of some sort but I almost forgot about it

07.24.14

Weight Loss Bet 

Ended up setting this up easier than I expected. I wanna say blogilates or someone has a weight loss pool but I always thought it'd be kinda difficult with so many people. So it started off with me and my cousin hanging out for lunch and then chocking out 49th Parallel Brewery for beers. We stuffed ourselves full at both places and while it was great and fun, we realized that it probably wasn't for the best in the long run. We both complain about being fat and other than extreme ish dieting, we've never really done anything about it. I know for a fact that he's in better shape/ has the potential to be in better shape than me but he's likely also a touch lazier than I am (questionable). Since we have mutual cousin getting married in a little over a month, (and I've been worrying over new my size small fitted dress), we decided to put money on who can lose the most weight between then and the night before the wedding. Winner gets the pot and beers from the loser. At the moment, stakes have grown as my brother and his dad are also in on the bet. My family being full of trolls, my cousin opted to keep the initial bet with me and I have (stupidly) ageeed to potentially lose $100 and a pay for a round of beers. But, I've biked the seawall three times on the last three days and hopefully I can fix my eating habits before the month is up and life will be good.😃 I was already super excited for the wedding since I picked up my dress, but this has recharged the energy. Need to go green grocery shopping stat. I think my breakfast situation needs working on because between breakfast and lunch, I usually get lazy and skip one of the two. The attempt to sleep early has failed tonight because I didn't want to forget again and naturally, I wanted to finish the ending of The Greatest Love. I think it was airing on the Chinese channel last summerish and I had known that people really enjoyed it. I tried to start it a little whole back but because it's a rom com about celebs, it didn't quite appeal to me. However, it stars Cha Seung won (who has a sexy sexy) and Gong Hyo Jin (who I really liked in The Master's Sun) and so tonight, I went ahead and went through the last three episodes. Happiest tearjerking last three episodes I've seen. Nuff said. Will try to keep updating about the attempt to be healthy. I have been trying to keep my calories in check but have been cheating along the way already. Was hopefull that biking would deviate the problem but it hasn't shown great results just yet. However, I know my cousin and his dad went for beers today and my brother was eating out of the ice cream jar so I can't be doing so bad. Till the next checkin, anyeonggaseyyo. 

Summer solstice

Keep going back to that time, our "reunion" you could call it. We talked and you asked if that guy I was talking about was "the" guy. Haha not the first time I've gotten that. But no, close to being the dearest man of my heart though. At that point in time, I didn't worry about going into detail because I didn't think it'd be one of the last conversations. I didn't think there'd be an end to getting to see you agian. I'd tell you how much of a goof ball he is and I would have introduced him to you. I'd tell you he's the nicest ,most genuine individual I know and we could have even gone to pitch and putt together. You might even lecture me about falling for family or something. Man, I kinda wish you would. I hope your up there laughing at me wishing you'd nag me again and wishing I could see that dingy smelly kitchen again, wash the dusty vacuum, and go through all your pictures. I don't want today to come because I don't want to have to call it one year without you. I felt horrible after we started talking again. I look back a realize how much of a brat I was. I wish I could remember every little detail of every birthday, dinner, and sleepover. Every trip and museum we went to.

Please watch over me. I miss you. 

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One.

Can't stop me now

I always come here with a post in mind, realize how behind/ how long ago the last post was and end up masssss posting. Decided to split it up, so now that that huge post is out of the way, I can say what I meant to say. 2 posts in a night, cray. So much for getting up for work tmr. /:

Anyhooo, my transfer FINALLY came through!! And I got it! Zomg that wait was excruciating. Lost count of how many times I went into my account, held my breath until I got the "it takes forever for us to process shit" message, again and again. But I am ecstatic. I found out during class and was so close to jumping straight out of my seat. It's still kinda hard to process. The coast isn't exactly clear though because now I have to take second year science courses. Great. Gotta buckle down and get shit done. Like real shit. Aiya, obnoxious Chloe is coming out so I'll leave with this. Some cuties and a good song. 

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Life Recapitulation

Sunny beach days

Famjamily dinner

Emma's 5th bday at hillcrest:

Little Angela 

Birthday girl

Famjamily dinner again: papa bear

Hipster sibling brunch @ Catch 122 Yaletown

Shameful Tiki Room with the girls and a flaming bowl 

Ganache bakery pumpkin yummy cake from B

Flowers from mommy

Midnight birthday surprise

Pajo's and Steveston with twinsie

Same day: huge spot prawns!

Bonding just like bros over chamiseul, rice wine, the goods. 

Backstreet Boys Vancouver

Post ultimate Kwong Chow munchies and Doctor Stranger!! Lee Jongsuk! Kdrama everyday. 

Lucy's diner. (Tasty grub)

New hat from the F as in Frank fire sale... But not really cuz all the cheap stuff sold out. Waited hours going around the whole block. But it was worth the 30% off this baby. 

Late birthday/ fundraising dinner. Turnout was a little small but I had a blast. #newcrew

Same night at the lamplighter in Yaletown. Fun place. Cute bartenders. #8 Russell. And that ain't no hashtag. 

*Out of order* Mother's Day dinner 

Not my fave study location but this right here is definitely my fave donut. Period. Mango Passionfruit. 

The start of #thurdaynights @ zabu chicken. So good. The yogurt soju and the chicken. 

Same night: First Seoul train at Base!! So sick. The Rainbow Train is also super awesome. The jack and coke, and their tequila, not so much. 

Taxi ride after ramen tokkpoki and causing a ruckus at Bella blue....maybe..?

Skateboarding in the park!!

Beautiful day, so much fun, scars if wiping out to prove it. 

Baking with the buds: Lemon meringue pie. Scrumptious!

Little old but trying to be artistic with my new shoes!! Thank you Payless for everyday shoes. Slip ons ftw. 

Dddd-d-box!! Free courtesy of scene points. Coolest movie experience ever. It was like touching tom cruise and being on Indiana jones or some universal studios ride for two hours. :D

"We're not so different you and I."

Bonding done right. 

Armin Only: Intense Vancouver May 3, 2014