you're not god. you don't get to play god. i can please her all you fucking want. i just hope that you don't screw her up like you did me. yeah, I'm selfish. but thats just because I've been taught to watch everything i own with my life becuase if i dont its gone. i can give her eveything she wants i just hope you're fine with having a carbon copy of me. fuck you. i can never be right in your eyes. i dont even know why i try.

Selfishness and Jealousy are two very vicious cycles.

Goodbye

There are things we don't want to happen, but have to accept. Things we don't want to know, but have to learn. And people we can't live without, but have to let go.

Breathe.
Accept.
Learn.
Let go.

06. 21. 2013
Lots and lots of love,
Chloe

Dysfunction

I'm convinced that a miniscule part of the definition of a family is dysfuntction. Maybe it's just my experience in life but it seems to always appear. Recently, I had the chance to look back and really realize that the waters had calmed tremendously from what they once were. Today, I sit here wishing things could stay calm forever. In the past year, I have witnessed probably the most smiles and happiness in one collective period of time. That's not to say there hasn't been the share of tears and commotion but more in comparison.

A big problem we have is our personal morales towards the family. Given the age gap, things were taught differently and coincidently we turned out differently. We took seperate things for granted, we listened to and respected different people, and we responded to and judged things differently.

I don't know where I want to go with this...hopefully, the answers to our problems will unravel themselves, fix themselves and judgment can be converted into happiness.

내가 길을 줘서 미안 해요.
미안 해요.