Falling apart, slowly crumbling to pieces

Coffee in the afternoon kills. Good thing I don't have class tmr. Bad thing I intend(ed) to get up early.

Things are really beginning to settle in for me. Time to pick up my horse shit and get my life together. And not just all talk and no action. Strictly action. There are too many people I have to prove wrong and too many people standing behind me waiting for me to shine. It will be hard but fuck it, I will get through to the other side. Just like Eminem, "I'ma be what I set out to be, without a doubt, undoubtably
And all those who look down on me, I'm tearing down your balcony

No if, ands, or buts."

Done.

好心被雷劈

Studying for my bio midterm tomorrow. Pretty scared for it because it's 15 multiple choice questions long.

Fucking hell. As if things couldn't just go from bad to worse. I seem like I'm under a lot of fucking pressure when you talk to me?? News Flash! I am in a lot of pressure!

Screw up?

Big time.

Despite all the dark, I'm "Still Alive"

Should be sleeping but had to document the trippiness of my day. Went out looking poopy cuz my hair was acting up and I slept in and missed my first actual lab. -.- went to study but ended up buying a pair of shoes for cheap and a book for my sister first. Didn't get much done but ran into possible every person that I would never in a million years guess I would bump into at that place and time. Yes I'm a little mind blown because it was just the oddest mix and almost literally one after another. A friend's ex, and old baller friend, the action kids brat, my ex rballers dad, Tak and his family!??? The fuck. So random. I probably should have said I but I was kind of in shock. It was weird. I want to meet his kids ): Anywhoozies, that was pretty random. Time for bed... Almost.

*apopt the prone position, ready, aim, fire*

Fuck. Why do I always make it so that in the end I just feel like I should quit?? Uhhh I want to fucking quit. But to throw everything down the drain just like that? How the fuck did I become someone who could do just that??
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People with less than me can do better. What the fuck.

It's not ok.

When did I decide that it was okay to throw my life away?
When did I decide that I don't have to care?
Why am I the first to jump the fun gun and put everything else that matters behind it?
When did I become this person who can take so easily?
When did I become so naive?
When is it my turn to grow up and mean something?

When you fall down, you pick yourself back up. But what if your forever falling?

Fuck gravity. GET THE FUCK UP!

*zombie apocalypse: wave 9000. ready, aim, fire.*

Cvc Snowstorm Jan 4-6, 2013

Big White, Kewlona

Unfortunately, back to the same old shitty shit

UBC CVC Snowstorm 2013

Ski trip/ Mass party

Hella fun. Quite worth it. Feeling like the first time I ever hardcore legit partied. I think having the place to drink and party is key. Hella fun need I say more. 

But back home now. Same old shit winding down. Shit facing me. 

Will add more later. Don't even know how I'm going to catch up for tmr. Fuck.

Christmas time is near!

*obvs late and out dated and neglected but you get the point.