Dysfunctional doesn't even begin to describe...

Maybe I exaggerate or maybe I'm just venting excessively, but what kind of person can be such a troll?? Ok we're worried maybe for the first obviously real time to you at least, is it really necessary to put your snazzy attitude in the way? Like ok, we get it, your 100% selfless but it's like us giving a damn isnt good enough or something. It's like we've got the right to be worried out of our fucking wits. but is it really worth it to put this over health?? If your trying to send a message then send it. Don't kill yourself in the process. If you open your eyes, we care. We all care, it's not a fucking act. If you ever lived in Anyone else's shoes you'd know that people give a shit. At least half a shit. Idk what I want. Maybe it's recognition or some credit. Or maybe I just want you to see outside your little box. To live a little. Before you fuck yourself up, showing us up.
:(
*bullet to the heart*

Family

Over the past couple years, I have found that the idea of family has become quite important to me. Don't really know what triggered it but maybe between both 太婆's passing away and mama and 姑婆's trips to the hospital I've just felt the need to get closer with my relatives around me. The trip to hk two spring break's ago really opened my eyes to how little I knew of my dad's side of the family. It's difficult with big spread out families with ginourmous age gaps but it's also embarrassing not knowing how a 表哥is related to you.

Got to see a whole crowd of relatives I haven't seen in a good couple of years tonight at my Uncle's birthday. It was truly amazing and I felt like I spent the night soaking them in. Kids that I once could hold in my arms were running around like monkeys. Just seemed so surreal and I guess that's just me feeling old. lol. Putting together a little fam tree to see if I can put everyone down on 'paper'. So I can get my famjam straight I guess and not just know people as "somehow related to me".

*insert token now*
Chlo

Current Obsession

This guy. These songs. Have been the love of my life lately. The cause: City Hunter <3 

To make my day, I found the ringtones for these!! :D So psyched lol Now, time to study. Ta Ta!

+Stealth Mode+

Flashback

"Ow, you kicked my spleen!"
I don't understand how fazed I am by the fact that people change. Things change. Time passes and things are just not the same. There are so many road not taken moments that I wish I could Ctrl F5 and go back and  live those roads. Its so hard to look towards the unforeseeable  future road compared to the path we've just gone down. The exits we passed that we can't get back to. I would more than anything want to meet the Chloe who danced or the Chloe who played the clarinet. The Chloe who played baseball and basketball or the Chloe who continually ranked nationally playing racquetball until she got to worlds. The Chloe who got good grades, the one who didn't lie, steal, cheat, or drink. I mean of course there are a million what if's, but I am who I am now solely because I'm not who they are. And I don't know, but sometimes, a pare of me wishes I was one of them.

Thought I'd add some color and smiles...

By that I just mean camwhoring.........yeaah....

Hey there! How's it going?

Pretty darn good if you ask me.

I'm having myself some grapefruit!

Look what  I got on V-day.

For me!!

Too bad there's no boytoy. Sadly, I'm Winston. confusing I know!

Colorfulllll. but old chocolates.

xoxo +1 <3!

You have no right to bash us, everything we do, and what we've become. You made us. You taught us. If we fail it's because you didn't do a good enough job. If we have problems, it's because you didn't solve them in time for us. Yes, you've given us everything but that doesn't mean we have become clones of you. We aren't you. We will never be you. If you want what you want, you have to go get it. Isn't that what you taught us? If you have labelled us as failures then that's all we'll ever be to you. If you want us to improve you have to let us, believe us, and support us. If all we're ever going to be to you is a burden then yeah, go ahead, drop the baggage, live your life. We won't be able to change your mind anyways.

Since I'm here,

Might as well actually update.
School's been dragging on and so has life. We bore past Jan and survived. 4day weekend this past weekend really saved me. That and the mid week dbl Nos I bought last week. Kekek no joke, wouldn't have gotten anywhere without that. But that stuff is pretty lethal......yet addictive. Time to start a new week! D: Can't say I'm looking forward to that at all. Went skiing for the first time in forever yesterday. It was absolutely amazing and I had forgotten how breathtaking the view from up there was. This morning I felt as if a truck had run over my upper body. Odd, I know. Spent the day in even though it was gorgeous out. Really feeling the need to get my ass back in shape and to find a source of income. Found two posts that I will actually apply for and follow through with. Gotta pick up the slack now that I have recharged-ish. Gotta pull through. Oh, and I reallllllly need to fix my sleeping sched. QQ but first step is to aim to not be late tmr. Or fail le geo in that case.

Night. Kill count: 001