Summer solstice

Keep going back to that time, our "reunion" you could call it. We talked and you asked if that guy I was talking about was "the" guy. Haha not the first time I've gotten that. But no, close to being the dearest man of my heart though. At that point in time, I didn't worry about going into detail because I didn't think it'd be one of the last conversations. I didn't think there'd be an end to getting to see you agian. I'd tell you how much of a goof ball he is and I would have introduced him to you. I'd tell you he's the nicest ,most genuine individual I know and we could have even gone to pitch and putt together. You might even lecture me about falling for family or something. Man, I kinda wish you would. I hope your up there laughing at me wishing you'd nag me again and wishing I could see that dingy smelly kitchen again, wash the dusty vacuum, and go through all your pictures. I don't want today to come because I don't want to have to call it one year without you. I felt horrible after we started talking again. I look back a realize how much of a brat I was. I wish I could remember every little detail of every birthday, dinner, and sleepover. Every trip and museum we went to.

Please watch over me. I miss you. 

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