The Way to Wind Down at the End of the Week...?

Just sat through 2 hours on epic cowboy madness ending off with a giant what the fuck. No joke. I found the entire thing pretty amusing but the end just made me go "woah, I just sat through a whole lot of nothingness." Doesn't help that the "bad" is kinda captivatingly, sexily, attractive. You know, in that long hair, eyeliner, with a shotgun kinda way..? Anyways, screen caps for the win:
(Not if they don't show up....awkward. Will fix soon. )
The Good, The Bad, and The Weird

Sleepless nights

"Another sleepless night..."
Not staring at the ceiling though.
Guess this will be this blogs equivalent of my other blogs "On my mind". At that pint of the night where I have to decide whether tonight will be a late night or not. Minutes to 12 ticking away. Wish it was ticking away to like Christmas or New Years or something. My mind's thinking another half episode of Athena? Ughh up until two days ago I was doing so good eight the tv ban too. But cuz I wasn't able to cut out YouTube ( I mean that's like impossible. Like totally. ☝) I started another. Too curious and too done with studying. So tonight's my guilty pleasure night until hardcore studying tmr. Gah too many excuses. ( holy someone just came into my room. Didn't seem to notice me tapping away at my screen though. 😬😅)
Okay, blow through half an episode and then hit the sheets! ( That always comes to mind and then I take it back because it sounds borderline dirty, no? Lol oh well.)

*deploying care package🚁📦*

Why must sleep be such a necessity??

Fuckity f*ck (pardon me). Write off day number five billion no big deal. 3:55am and counting. Killlllling time. Some how stayed up ill 5 last night doing close to nothing after a brutal second exam and really good cake for Rach's birthday. Didn't do shaznatch today. Chem final's in 2. Piano teacher gets back, class in 3. Frack Koreans and their epic, jaw dropping,cliff hanging dramas. Ugh the only good looking guy isn't even important in this one. The girl is from the melodramatic (I suppose. If I knew what that meant...) drama B's catching that I picked up for one episode and then dropped cuz she was kinda ugly. But bad ass super spy cop action changes errthang. Grrrr if I didn't need to sleep, I could finish all eps by lunch. Fml need major intervention. Keke. Anywhozieohs, sleep in 30? Sounds about right. 😅

Now equipped: dual silenced pistols. 🔫🔫

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Amen

Nov. 17, 2012

Is it wrong for me to be there? Beside her. Is it not recognizable that I could be worried sick too? I didn't take work off so that I could be stuck at home babysitting. Think I might drive myself crazy.

There's a time for everything. But I really really don't want it to be time for this. I got filled in this morning cuz I got up pretty late. I had vaguely heard dad leaving for the hospital in my sleep. Got to the ER around 2:30, 3ish maybe. Doc came around to have the talk. And it just hit. This may be it. 

And I know I can't think like that because mom already does out loud too but I can't help it you know? Everything has changed and they'll never ever be the same. And I really don't want to accept that. or whatever else. What it would do to the people around me is unthinkable. 

Dad called before they left and it sounded like there was a possibility she was waking up. What if I don't get to see her with her eyes open ever again? or hear her? God, what is wrong with me? ugh. I'd just fucking like to be there. 

But no. Chloe, she'll be fine. She'll make it through this one. She deserves it. Her kids and their kids deserve it. Don't worry. 

But that's the problem: I can't.

Who the hell are you??
You made me. Why don't you know a fucking thing about me? What gives you the right to say what you like about me? What gives you the right to think what you like about me?

I'd make a good zombie

Rough day, rough patch, rough life.

Mama, please get better.