I'm sorry for not being good enough. That's what I'm sorry for. I really am.
To you, I can't do anything right. Everything I say is wrong. I fucked up bad and I don't know when and how. And I have no clue how to even get started on fixing it. It's like waking up, realizing that you're being buried alive. You to stunned to know what to do. Fuck it.
Friday, June 24, 2011
Thursday, June 23, 2011
HCO3-+H3O+=H2CO3+H2O
I'm so close to the end I can taste it! In 5 hours and 27 minutes I will officially be FREE!!!! That is if I survive my Chem 12 provincial. D: I guess I don't have much to say besides I am frightened but estatic that by this afternoon I will be done with school....for now -.-. The contents of my brain have turned to mush from all the Keq's and redox reactions so I will type again later when I am home free and doing everything I couldn't do before ALL AT THE SAME TIME Sucka's ;D
I'm going nuts, I know.
xoxo
Sunday, June 12, 2011
Just Chillin'
Since I made a second blog 5 posts ago, I realized that the two combined pretty made up the most of me only dividing me but optimist and pessimist...Now, I don't want people who come across (if any) this one to think I'm little miss Emo-doom-gloom becuase I'm not. It's just really nice to have a place to vent. But still, there's always gotta be some balance. Therefore, today's post is just going to be on a little high note because I am actually having a pretty good laid back night compared to the week I've just train wrecked through. Enjoy the light at the end of the tunnel! While it lasts. :)
Spending this lovely night catching up on some much missed TV. I know now is not the best time but me being the ultimate wasting-time-at-the-worst-possible-time expert, I thought I'd take the time to catch up on some English and Canto dramas. Unfortunately, megavideo has currently forced me to wait 72mins because of my over use. I didn't even get through very much :(
I got hooked onto another tvb drama after a long hiatus on my part. I watched the first couple of the brand new Raymond Lam drama but it got on my nerves a little bit so I didn't continue. Currently, I'm chasing a lawyer themed drama with Kevin Cheng. His character is a little sloppy and disrespectful as it seems but its Kevin, enough said. He never fails to throw something in my direction to capture my attention. English series wise, I decided that I wanted to watch till the end of Smallville. I have sort of always been a fan (although I do admit I skipped a couple seasons in the beginning. There are just too many episodes. lol) and its sad to see it end however necessary it may be. I still have quite a few episodes to keep me busy and happy so it's all good. To make things better, Clark and Lois have finally 'tied the knot' so things can only get better. Unless, they've decided to pull a cheesy lame ass ending or something where everyone dies and the world gets crushed.
Ohp! Videos back up =)
Pce out.
Spending this lovely night catching up on some much missed TV. I know now is not the best time but me being the ultimate wasting-time-at-the-worst-possible-time expert, I thought I'd take the time to catch up on some English and Canto dramas. Unfortunately, megavideo has currently forced me to wait 72mins because of my over use. I didn't even get through very much :(
I got hooked onto another tvb drama after a long hiatus on my part. I watched the first couple of the brand new Raymond Lam drama but it got on my nerves a little bit so I didn't continue. Currently, I'm chasing a lawyer themed drama with Kevin Cheng. His character is a little sloppy and disrespectful as it seems but its Kevin, enough said. He never fails to throw something in my direction to capture my attention. English series wise, I decided that I wanted to watch till the end of Smallville. I have sort of always been a fan (although I do admit I skipped a couple seasons in the beginning. There are just too many episodes. lol) and its sad to see it end however necessary it may be. I still have quite a few episodes to keep me busy and happy so it's all good. To make things better, Clark and Lois have finally 'tied the knot' so things can only get better. Unless, they've decided to pull a cheesy lame ass ending or something where everyone dies and the world gets crushed.
Ohp! Videos back up =)
Thursday, June 9, 2011
ok fine, I surrender
I was listening to a friend vent and freak out earlier thinking: wow it'd suck to be that stressed out right now.
Couple hours later, I'm in the same goddamn situation :(
I just wana say 'fuck it' and stop caring. But we're so frickin close to the end. How can it feel so far away at the same time? The closer it gets to the end, the more sressful it feels. So much stuff to do, know, deal with. I'm so fucking tired of it ALL. I cant take this bullshit anymore :(To make things that much worse, I have like digestion problems or something cuz my stomachs being a bitch, I have the equivalent of half a chem final tomorrow, i know next to nothing about it, and I just want to fucking sleep till August for that matter. My hairs still wet, my dads threatening to limit/ get rid of texting on my phone because his friend has perfect little straight A kids who skip prom to 'study', rarely touches a computer let alone facebook, and gives my dad every goddamn reason to critisize my actions. I dont know if you can even begin to understand the level of ''Fucked Up'' I feel I'm at right now. My spaz rampage doesn't even begin to cover it. If my stomach didnt feel like it was about to explode, I would have downed some Red before crashing. But I don't want to fricking fail, not that saying it helps anything. EVER. Uggghh. What the shit. Just pray that I can scrape my subconscious(? didnt learn shit in psych, or atleast none of it stuck. Lol) up tmr at 5or 6am to cram. Snowball in hell thats going to happen. :( But let's have a little hope shall we? Since all else seems lost already... Dammnit, I want my life back...no wait, i want someone elses life!! Nothing fancy, just something simple will be swell. Something other than this. D: god geebus.
xnlnxnlnx (hugs and fucking middle fingers)
-Zombie with its brains shot out
Couple hours later, I'm in the same goddamn situation :(
I just wana say 'fuck it' and stop caring. But we're so frickin close to the end. How can it feel so far away at the same time? The closer it gets to the end, the more sressful it feels. So much stuff to do, know, deal with. I'm so fucking tired of it ALL. I cant take this bullshit anymore :(To make things that much worse, I have like digestion problems or something cuz my stomachs being a bitch, I have the equivalent of half a chem final tomorrow, i know next to nothing about it, and I just want to fucking sleep till August for that matter. My hairs still wet, my dads threatening to limit/ get rid of texting on my phone because his friend has perfect little straight A kids who skip prom to 'study', rarely touches a computer let alone facebook, and gives my dad every goddamn reason to critisize my actions. I dont know if you can even begin to understand the level of ''Fucked Up'' I feel I'm at right now. My spaz rampage doesn't even begin to cover it. If my stomach didnt feel like it was about to explode, I would have downed some Red before crashing. But I don't want to fricking fail, not that saying it helps anything. EVER. Uggghh. What the shit. Just pray that I can scrape my subconscious(? didnt learn shit in psych, or atleast none of it stuck. Lol) up tmr at 5or 6am to cram. Snowball in hell thats going to happen. :( But let's have a little hope shall we? Since all else seems lost already... Dammnit, I want my life back...no wait, i want someone elses life!! Nothing fancy, just something simple will be swell. Something other than this. D: god geebus.
xnlnxnlnx (hugs and fucking middle fingers)
-Zombie with its brains shot out
Saturday, May 28, 2011
Long Time No Post...
Just painted my nails :D Tri service 2011 is tomorrow and I am supper psyched.
Catching up on my long list of unwatched Criminal Minds. This one quote really stuck out at me.
Derek Morgan(voice):
We are tied to the ocean. And when we go back to the sea, whether it is to sail or to watch - we are going back from whence we came. -John F. Kennedy
<3
Time to watch the finale!! I should really sleep. The plan for tomorrow was to get up bright and early to get all my work done. But now I'm not sure I can peel myself up. I've actually got tons of hmwk to do which makes it that much worse. Guess I'll just have to be a hermit all day before I leave to get ready at a friends. so better get ready to hit the sheets! I'm ready to pass out.
xoxo
Catching up on my long list of unwatched Criminal Minds. This one quote really stuck out at me.
Derek Morgan(voice):
We are tied to the ocean. And when we go back to the sea, whether it is to sail or to watch - we are going back from whence we came. -John F. Kennedy
<3
Time to watch the finale!! I should really sleep. The plan for tomorrow was to get up bright and early to get all my work done. But now I'm not sure I can peel myself up. I've actually got tons of hmwk to do which makes it that much worse. Guess I'll just have to be a hermit all day before I leave to get ready at a friends. so better get ready to hit the sheets! I'm ready to pass out.
xoxo
Friday, May 20, 2011
and the walls start cracking all over again
ive been slacking.
Spent the whole day doing nothing.
We washed my bros car after school and then after dinner, i bummed around eventually finding a new drama. That is obviously a bad sign -.-
Lifes been pretty meh.
The inbetween time, ive been dwelling on dailybooth and an idea for a possible tatoo surprisingly. Not like its going to happpen anytime soon but the idea has me really hyped up. Atm, im leaning towards just script and something tiny like1-3 words.however i really would like it to be unique which makes it less simple. Lol its such a long shot, i dunno why i even bother -.-
Anyhoo, short post today cuz im beat and theres not much to say. Longweekend has officially started cept im not all that excitd. BUT, i think im gettjing a late bday dinner so that will be amaz. :)
Pce out
Spent the whole day doing nothing.
We washed my bros car after school and then after dinner, i bummed around eventually finding a new drama. That is obviously a bad sign -.-
Lifes been pretty meh.
The inbetween time, ive been dwelling on dailybooth and an idea for a possible tatoo surprisingly. Not like its going to happpen anytime soon but the idea has me really hyped up. Atm, im leaning towards just script and something tiny like1-3 words.however i really would like it to be unique which makes it less simple. Lol its such a long shot, i dunno why i even bother -.-
Anyhoo, short post today cuz im beat and theres not much to say. Longweekend has officially started cept im not all that excitd. BUT, i think im gettjing a late bday dinner so that will be amaz. :)
Pce out
Thursday, May 5, 2011
Feels like a Friday, but it's not :D
So I've realized I haven't posted in a while so I shall right now. :)
The Canucks just beat Nashville 4-2 and the game was pretty good. I didn't pay much attention though trying to flip to Vampire Diaries on commercial breaks. :) On the other hand, VD tonight was epic. Its intenseness was beyond describable. Gahh haha can't wait till next week but I have a feeling the season is over next week which really really sucks.
Besides tv, I'm really ready for the weekend. It seems like forever since the last one. This weekend is pretty packed for me so that's probably why. I've got dinner planned for Sat night and then a party after. Sun is mother's day but I'm getting my hair cut in the morning. Then I'll most likely spend the rest of the day with my mommy. =D
I realized that I haven't seen a movie in a really long time. Found out that The Mechanic is out on blu ray so I can dwld it :D teehee. So glad I have a short day at school tmr. I don't think I could take a full day. I should probably do some studying now but thats not very likely to happen.
The main reason I've been neglecting this is cuz I recently got a dailybooth and between that and twitter and facebook, I've been really 'busy'. Haha
http://dailybooth.com/ChloeWinston
http://twitter.com/#!/ChloeWinston
Havin a lot of fun with them both :D
Oh! In English class, we're watching a Mementos directed/produced or whatever by Christopher Nolan. I fuckin love that guy. Haha he is truly amazing. Cant wait to watch the rest of the movie.
ttyl
pce out
The Canucks just beat Nashville 4-2 and the game was pretty good. I didn't pay much attention though trying to flip to Vampire Diaries on commercial breaks. :) On the other hand, VD tonight was epic. Its intenseness was beyond describable. Gahh haha can't wait till next week but I have a feeling the season is over next week which really really sucks.
Besides tv, I'm really ready for the weekend. It seems like forever since the last one. This weekend is pretty packed for me so that's probably why. I've got dinner planned for Sat night and then a party after. Sun is mother's day but I'm getting my hair cut in the morning. Then I'll most likely spend the rest of the day with my mommy. =D
I realized that I haven't seen a movie in a really long time. Found out that The Mechanic is out on blu ray so I can dwld it :D teehee. So glad I have a short day at school tmr. I don't think I could take a full day. I should probably do some studying now but thats not very likely to happen.
The main reason I've been neglecting this is cuz I recently got a dailybooth and between that and twitter and facebook, I've been really 'busy'. Haha
http://dailybooth.com/ChloeWinston
http://twitter.com/#!/ChloeWinston
Havin a lot of fun with them both :D
Oh! In English class, we're watching a Mementos directed/produced or whatever by Christopher Nolan. I fuckin love that guy. Haha he is truly amazing. Cant wait to watch the rest of the movie.
ttyl
pce out
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